this is one of those  days.

days where u feel like letting yourself out. days when u feel like writing a paragraph or two, days when you'd like your crazy thoughts into something rational and readable.

but no. i have nothing to write about but the nothingness of this day. a day where thoughts don't turn themselves into words. days when thoughts remain mere thoughts.

it's hard when your hand is silent when you so much to write. id like to unclog my head with all the crazy thoughts that's inside.

hmmmm..

how bout i make a list of things that's rambling inside my head.

hmm..

yeap.. y not..

well, first on my list. i miss my dear little fish..my baby...that i carried inside my womb for nfourthine months. i miss her dearly.

second would be finding a job that would be enough for me to support my family and my growing baby.. that would include going abroad. which would mean processing my passport, and resume, checking the net for possible job offers.

third would be my tummy. it's still too bulgy..my pants won't fit me anymore. which means buying a new pair of jeans. which means another set of expenses. darn!

fourth would be if id accept his sister's invitation in friendster. accepting her means ive accepted the fact that i have the fight..we'll actually, am overreacting. :p maybe am just not ready to forgive. yes, i admit, i still feel a bit of disappointment, and a little hatred against his family. and i don't think it would be very easy for me to forgive. though id want to, really, i really want to. but my pride prevents me from doing so..or more like my respect for myself. hihihihi...

fifth, i still have work tommorow 6am, and im still up.. i should be sleeping now.

6th, am happy that after tommorow is my rest day!! wee... rest and relaxation..

7th, i wish id find someone to love, and love me in return. but am not in a hurry. he'd come when his ready. ill wait. hahay..kadugay ba sako soulmate.. :P

hmmm...its getting late..

maybe i should sleep now..

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