just trying
to become a better person everyday..
i've been complaining a lot these past few days. and so i resign from complaining. from now on, i'll try a different tactic in approaching my most of the time emotionally unavailable partner. (AHAHA.. or maybe i'm just really too demanding, and emotional).
and so, i tried talking to him about constant communication, and setting a time and days of the week that we'd chat. And suprisingly, he agreed to it (i've already pictured him saying no in my head, and giving me some lame excuse not to do it). We talked about what is most convenient for the both of us.
we're the most perfect couple, and we argue about a lot of things, or let me rephrase that, i try to argue, he says "i don't know". And so we never resolve anything. No fighting, because he doesn't any drama, and i ended asking for a break up, and he responds by saying i don't know again.
But the previous paragraph is a breakthrough is our relationship. We hope to work things out, and have a happy family. We try not to force each other to be together, because of our child (it might just complicate things more)and it as far as i know we're both not. I think his dysfunctional, he also thinks the same way about me. We're not sure where this would lead us both, but we hope to both be happy at the end. I think i love him, and he thinks he loves me too. And so we leave everything to God, and hope for the best.
Mood: staring in the midst of nowhere
I know it doesn’t come close. If Stephanie Meyer, J. K. Rowling and JRR Tolkien are the dinosaurs in this field, I’d be the dudu bird or even lower than the dudu bird. And so pardon my attempt, this is just me trying to become a writer; trying to squeeze the creative juice out of my dudu head.
And so I start it with this, “If ever I get stuck in an alternate dimension, I’ll make sure to wear my favorite pair of jeans, and a black shirt that goes well with it. Not only will it look nice it the cover of the book, but I’ll be very comfortable running away from all sorts of trouble. And If I ever get back to reality (whichever it is), I won’t have a hard time washing all the dirt off my shirt.”
I know most adventure stories starts with a more dramatic line, or something really mysterious, but I’m writing base on what I’m currently thinking.
The protagonist of this story sits in her station (yes, I’ve chosen a lady leading role), following the minute hand on her watch, with the faces of Mickey and his gang in the background, as it crawl towards 10:30am. She looks around hoping her supervisor won’t bust her for surfing non-business related sites. She’s been googling pictures of Taylor Lautner for the past 3 hours. I don’t get it. He’s just like every other kid on TV, nothing cute about him, well, except for the really gorgeous body, charming eyes, and amazing smile, but apart from that he’s just ordinary. And so our protagonist, whom I’ll dubbed as Joey, continues to ogle on the kid’s body, when suddenly an unknown email appeared on her email.
The subject line says “INVITATION”. “Invitation to what?” she asks herself. She hesitantly clicked on the message to find out what it’s about.
And so, just like what always happens, I get lost in the middle of writing, and then run out of ideas, stop writing, and hope to resume as soon as possible. Duh! I wish I’d be more creative.
In the middle of the day, my mind wanders away from my undecorated, owned-by-none, sullen station.
Early symptoms of alzheimer’s
I was in the shower earlier, I had this epiphany but then again, I forgot about it. So I’m writing now, in order to remember what I was thinking earlier. And still, I cannot remember.
Barely breathing
I know that I should be careful this time. I know that I should save something for myself. But I believe I am. I need to make amends with my lonely self; make amends with the bits and pieces of my heart. This is just too cheesy. Darn! What a way to start my day.
LSS
I have a song singing in my head.
Well, I took my "tea" earlier, and as usual, it took effect at the wrong time again. I should remind myself to take it, always, before going to work. I think I need to eat something. I’m hungry. My stomach’s grumbling, and I’m talking to myself; I really need to eat.
I have this song in my head. Yeah, I said that earlier.
What is a rough jacob compared to a dreamy edward.
I'm an edward fan myself, but something about jacob's character that makes me want to love him too. :P
I was pregnant when i read the twilight series, (heheh.. through ebook) and I really didn't like the part when Edward took off, and bella was left alone. But then again, Jacob was there to keep her company during the alive-yet-dead period of her life. I hated it, when bella was with Jacob, I kept hoping that by the next page Edward would turn up.
However, when I watched the movie, courtesy of the company (we were given a free pass to watch new moon! oh joy!), it made me appreciate Jacob's character.
I have to admit the gorgeous bod was one of the reasons (ahahha..he is so sexy!! i think everyone can agree!), but it was this part towards the end that made me love his character. It was when bella told him not to make her choose between him, and Edward. Because even if she (bella) loved him (Jacob), it has always been Edward. (ouch..).
But even If Jacob knows that; even if he knows even before bella said those words, he still pursued bella. He didn't give up on his feelings. Unlike Edward, he's not into sacrifcing-myself-for-the-sake-of-the-one-i-love. He knows what he wants and he'll do everything to prove that he deserves bella, even though he doesn't stand a chance against Edward in Bella's heart.
And for that Hurrah to the stubborn wolf!
P.S. And yes, He is so gorgeous! everyone was screaming when he first took his shirt off! And everytime he appeared half-naked. wew!
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